"And When I Die' Part II

One of my earliest posts is 'And when I die'
referring to the Blood, Sweat & Tears song of
the late '60's.
Now that my son is involved with the death of
his paternal grandmother I can not express how
meaningful this song continues to be.

I can only wish that I am not leaving many
unanswered questions for my son. We have
pretty much tackeled the world together
while he pursued and continues to pursue
his work in the music industry.

It is difficult to be estranged from family
members while piecing together the past
and placing everyone in their little place
in your history.

In my mind some stories don't get told
because they are not relevant. Then there
are the unanswered questions that will
plague generations to come. I find that
tragic and a sad legacy of 'what if's' that
a parent leaves for those that are living.

My walk with my parents had it's turbulent
times. We forgave and moved on at the end
and enjoyed our final days together. Eldercare
is very difficult when you are 1200 miles apart.
Any mystery questions are no longer relevant
and I am at peace. I wish the same for my son.
He may get it with me but maybe not with his
father's family.